Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Life, Interrupted

Sorry for the blog silence!

All by May 1, I was supposed to move out of one apartment and into a house; finish my revisions and turn them in; and complete a bunch of projects at my day job that are extremely intensive.

April has been a stressful month but I was on track to finish it all.  Then, last Friday, my dog swallowed a treat and spent until yesterday in doggy hospital with a failing liver and blocked esophagus.  It was a bit of a nightmare.  He still may not recover but at least now he's sitting here beside me as I type, sleeping.

I still have to move, I still have to finish those revisions (though luckily my wonderful editor at Simon Pulse gave me some extra days...animal lovers unite!), and I still have to go get ready to go to work.

Oh, and I turn 33 on Saturday.  Not ready for that either.

But life goes on.  That's the reality of being a writer...of being a human being, I suppose. Life happens, and we just do our best to keep up.

I'll be back on the blog after all this current craziness is over.  In the meantime, enjoy a picture of Maxx before he swallowed a stupid treat whole.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Bibliophile

I love music.  I devour it.  I blast it when I write; I sing along to it when I drive; and I let it wrap me up in a bubble when I'm wandering through airports, being jostled by strangers on their way to far off destinations. Music feeds my soul.

When I was young, I had records.  I played them on this toy turntable that sat against the wall of my bedroom.  I danced around in my underwear to Michael Jackson and Donnie and Marie.  I cried when my records got scratched but I loved putting the needle down on the groove and listening to that first scratchy hum before the actual music began.

I don't remember when I got a tape player.  Christmas maybe. It was this black boombox with detachable speakers that ate C batteries like I ate music.  I lugged it up to my fort, still listening to MJ but having added some heavy rock and whatever played on the radio. I giggled along to Salt N Peppa's Push It, was shocked by George Michael, and strangely enthralled by Phil Collins.  I was a master of fixing tapes that had been mysteriously swallowed by the strange toothy mechanism inside the deck.

When CDs came along, I couldn't afford them.  I had a CD player, given to me by my father for either my birthday or Christmas, I can't remember which.  But I do remember its diminutive size and being awed by the technology.  On weekends when I'd go visit him, we'd all go to Peaches music store and search for new music.  Both of my parents inspired my musical adventurousness.  My mom was into Motown and the BeeGees while my father listened to Pat Benetar and Fleetwood Mac.  I had started listening to Guns N Roses and 10,000 Maniacs and REM.

CDs were when I began collecting.  I had hundreds.  I spent more money on music than on anything else during my adolescence.  I know I wasn't alone in that.  When I moved out on my own, I didn't take much, but I took my CD's.  I lugged them around in boxes, even the scratched ones.  I took them to Orlando and Atlanta and Rhode Island and then back home to Jupiter.

Finding music to listen to wasn't always easy.  As I grew up, I realized that my tastes were wildly different from mainstream.  The radio didn't appeal to me.  I loved indie music and rock music and singer-songwriter stuff.  I loved great music.  But finding it was difficult.  I'd hear it in movies or on TV shows or friends would tell me about this great band I had to try.  It was word of mouth mostly.  But the problem was that record companies controlled the distribution channels.  Radio stations controlled exposure.  And there was no way for me to find the musicians I wanted short of moving somewhere like Seattle or Austin or New York.

Then the Internet happened.  MP3's and Napster and Audio Galaxy.  Even Myspace.  I didn't care that the audio quality of a lossy MP3 was slightly inferior to a record.  I loved the music.  The words.  The connection to the feelings.  Bitrates didn't mean jack to me.  I didn't care if I listened to it on a computer or a CD player or a fist sized digital player.  I just wanted my music.

Suddenly, finding music became easy.  Artists could interact and sell directly to their fans.  I used to spend hours browsing the music pages on Myspace just to find one unsigned band that I loved and could support.  I downloaded thousands of tracks from Napster back in the day to find that one diamond.  I was finding and loving bands months and years before they become popular, if they became popular at all.  And the thing was, that the metrics for success were changing.  An artist like Amanda Palmer, who has no major label deal, isn't rich, has probably never been played on the radio, is (in my opinion) successful.  She's doing what she loves with the direct support of her fans and she's able to support herself as she does it.

There was a tipping point for the record labels.  A moment at which they could have embraced the paradigm shift before being rendered irrelevant.  It was right around the time iTunes came onto the scene.  They ignored the fact that people in general like cheap and easy over difficult and pricey.  They thought that they could continue to sell CD's for $20 when you could buy the whole album in digital format for less than ten dollars without having to drive to a store or even deal with physical media.  One click gets you what you crave.  They ignored the signs and instead of adapting, they sued their customers, fought iTunes, and tried to hold on to the old ways of doing things.

The old ways no longer work.  They're not logical.

As a consumer, I don't give a shit about the internal politics.  I care about getting the music I love at a fair price.  Sure, when I buy an album from an artist like Amanda Palmer, I feel good knowing that because she's not on a label, that she's making most of the money, but I'd buy her music either way.

The reason record labels fell is because an artist alone will meet the customer wherever they are.  They'll even give their music away for free if that's what it takes.  The record labels forced customers to come to them.  For years, customers did it because they had no other choices.  Times changed, the labels did not.

Record labels will always exist.  There are audiophiles out there who will pay a premium for records.  Nostalgia will keep bands putting out their music on CDs and vinyl for many years to come.  But the days of big record labels being able to control every aspect of a musician's career are over.  Some will still choose to go that route, and some will be wildly successful.  But a lot will take another road.  And some of those will be wildly successful too.  Just like some will fail and fade into obscurity and some will manage to make just enough to keep their career going on and on and on.

Records or CDs and distribution channels and labels.  None of that matters to me though.  I just love the music.

Monday, April 11, 2011

On Being an Artist

I'm probably going to ramble.  I apologize in advance.

For a while in my twenties I hung around with a group of friends who were crazy.  Most of them were artists or wanted to be artists.  They lived together in a house and I lived on the outside looking in.  We spent nights getting drunk and smoking and doing the things that twenty-somethings do.  We read obscure books and not-so obscure books like Kerouac and Plath and Burroughs.  We listened to old rock and obscure rock and punk rock and we ran around naked, beating our chests and making crazy, violent, amazing art.

Sometimes we'd sit around with wine or beer or whatever we had on hand, and speed write.  We'd write whatever we could as fast as we could in the time it took to smoke one cigarette.  Then we'd go around the room and read it.

I had insomnia so bad back then that I'd stay up all night making art.  Painting and writing and drawing and singing.  I had art crawling under my skin, dying, begging to burst through the seams and come out.

One of the girls broke old TV's and turned them into landscapes  from her brain.  The backyard was a minefield of glass, the ashes of her dead television sets.  She used doll parts and anything else she had on hand.  Poverty is a great instigator for invention.

The guy who lived there mostly painted.  He had this idea in his head that in order to BE an artist, he had to suffer.  Happiness was an enemy.  Only through pain could great art be created.  He was good too.  Great even.  He was also frequently too stoned to do more than sit around watching Golden Girls repeats.

Over at this blog is this post about how to steal like an artist.  You should go read it.  It's probably more coherent than I am.  One of the things he says is that art isn't simply about what you make but about what you leave behind.  I'm mostly paraphrasing.  It's brilliant really.

I don't drink much anymore.  And I don't really see those people.  I still listen to punk and read Kerouac.  Sometimes I go back and I look at the art that I created back during those times.  The journals and the paintings.  Sometimes I'm blown away.  It's crazy, violent, amazing art.  It's also incomplete and diseased.

These days I work an 8-5 job.  I watch movies and TV.  I hang out with good people and lead a stable, normal life.  Twenty-something me would have see 33-year-old me and called me a fucking sell-out.  Maybe he would have been right.  I did just spend all of yesterday shopping for household items for my new place, for my life of domestic bliss.  But then I could have shown my twenty-something self my art, the art I'm creating today.  And it would have blown him away.

Art and the artist are linked.  They're one.  But in order to become a real artist, I had to put up walls between my life and my art.  There's only one place in which those walls come down, and it's when I'm sitting in my chair, letting all my crazy, all my violence, all my magical fucked up thoughts out onto the page.

I read this fantasy book recently called THE WAY OF KINGS by Brandon Sanderson.  Good book.  In it, there's this stuff called Stormlight.  And one character, an assassin, can breathe it in and perform feats of great magic.  To hold the stormlight, he holds his breath.  And even still, it bleeds out of his skin, leaks from his eyes.  Art is like that.  If you try to keep it in, it will tear you apart.  You can't hold your breath forever.

I believe I mentioned that I was going to ramble.  The more I think about it, the more I consider myself lucky that I survived BEING an artist.  These days, I just like being normal and letting the art be something I do when no one is around.  I'd rather people not find out I'm crazy when they meet me.  They've got my books for that.

Also, because I never had the courage to say it to my friend:  suffering and pain don't make you an artist, making great art does.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Why Inception Sucked

I'm just going to come right out and say it:  INCEPTION blew.

The concept was intriguing, the acting was fantastic, and the visuals were inspired.  But the movie wussed out on its own concept.  As a story, that was a real letdown.

So many people walked out of that movie feeling their minds blown.  But not me.  I was insanely annoyed.  As storytellers, I think it's our jobs to take people to the line and then push them over it.  The first act is littered with literary guns that simply fail to ever go off.

Take for example the concept of the dream within a dream within a dream.  In order to accomplish their mission, the characters would exist in the target's mind for what would feel like 30 years!  When I heard that, I was excited.  How would the story play out for 30 years?  Would they go crazy?  Would they be the same people they were when they went into the dream?  I mean, wow!  The idea is insane.  And then they speed up the entire sequence into hours rather than years and blew that which made the whole thing exciting.

Sure, one character is stuck in Limbo for decades but he comes out no worse for the wear, and we never see what he goes through.

All in all, it was a promise unfulfilled.

The Architect character played by Ellen Paige was another wasted opportunity.  She had the ability to BUILD WORLDS!  And she gave us a snow range.  The whole thing was supposed to be some kind of maze, but because of the time constraint, she had to make a path right through it.

To me, the ending was the least interesting aspect.  Was he awake, wasn't he?  Who cares?  This was a character drama that succumbed to plot.  It was wasted opportunity after wasted opportunity.

In my opinion, if you want to see a concept throughly explored, go see THE ADJUSTMENT BUREAU.

What We Want

I've been wading through pools of literary blood as I embark upon revisions for my next, untitled book.  It's been a bit of a challenge for me because my cast of characters is larger and more diverse than anything I've written.  First of all, it's going to be in 3rd person, which means I'm not telling the story from just one perspective.  That, in and of itself, is a challenge.  But it's character motivations that are really troubling me this time around.

See, in Deathday, everything was pretty clear.  When I wrote the Ollie/Ronnie romance, I had this feeling that if Ollie hadn't gotten his letter, eventually he and Ronnie would have reconciled and worked out.  So their journey toward the end, while sped up a bit due to Ollie's demise, was fairly easy to script.  Plus, I only had to primarily deal with the whole thing from Ollie's point of view.

Not so in this untitled book.  I find myself frequently asking: what does this character want?  I'm fairly clear on most of the characters, however there's one to which the answer has repeatedly been:  I don't know.

And that's a problem.

Everyone has an agenda.  I know that sounds crass but it's true.  Even if that agenda is to get completely trashed and act like a wanky jackhole, it's still something.  Of course, if you dig deep enough, you'll likely find a deeper motivation behind someone who goes to a party to make a complete fool of themselves.

I should know; I've been the fool.

So when you sit down to write a scene, ask yourself what the characters in that scene want.  Are they trying to impress someone, make them jealous, make them smile, feel guilty?  Knowing the answers to those questions can help sort out your scenes and character motivations.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Connectedness

I love the Internet.  I grew up with it.  From the first time I logged on to Prodigy, I was hooked.  I remember the joy of going from a 9600 baud modem to the blazing fast 14.4.  Back then, there wasn't a lot to do on the Internet, but it was still exciting.

These days, I still love the Internet, but I hate it even more.

I love the free flow of information.  I love being able to find anything I want, whenever I want.  If I'm researching a book, I don't have to wait until tomorrow to find the info I need.  I can have it now.  I hate phones, so the Internet allows me to talk to friends effortlessly via email.  I love being able to research products and shop on-line and being able to find the name of that one movie, you know the one, that starred that guy who was in that show.

But I hate the ubiquity of it.  Lately I've taken a break from Twitter.  It began to overwhelm me.  I felt like the protagonist in FEED.  Just missing an hour of the feed, I mean Twitter, could result in pages upon pages of missed info.  It made me feel guilty.  I spent more time reading Twitter and less time doing the things that mattered.

Then there's blogging and my RSS feeds and Reddit and Email and skyping and and and.

Over the last couple of months, I've said to myself that what I want more than anything is to take a cruise for a couple of weeks.  Not because I necessarily love cruises, but because there's no cell signal.  No phones, email, internet.  Just me, my thoughts, and my drink.

This morning, I logged back onto Twitter and immediately felt overwhelmed.  So I shut it off.

As I ramble here on a Friday, I'm curious how you all handle being connected all the time.  Is it a bane or a boon?  How do you unplug when the information is everywhere?